Updates & Posts – Page 37 – Kris Charles

Scars

My scars tell a story

My scars tell a life

One you can’t understand fully

A life full of strife

My scars have driven my passion

My scars have built me

They have taught me life lessons

They have set me free

My scars that make this life worth living

My scars that keep me whole

They keep me believing

They keep from rotting in a hole

My scars tell my story

My scars tell my life

One you can’t understand fully

A life full of blissful strife

Edge of Despair

I am standing on the ledge

Waiting for someone

To save me from this edge

Waiting for anybody

I have been pushed

I have been hurt

I have been crushed

I have been burnt

I thought I was more

Then just a random skirt

I am not a whore

I should have been on alert

So now I stand on this ledge

Waiting for someone

To save me from this edge

Waiting for anybody

To save me from this edge

This edge of despair

I am about to walk off the ledge

Will anybody shed a tear?

Unwritten

My story is being written

But so much remains unwritten

The love, the loss, all becomes me

So to myself I will be as true as can be

I write my story in pen

And my will, will never bend

We all make mistakes

It doesn’t mean we put on the brakes

I will never forget the moments of my life

No matter the strife

They have made me who I am

So I would be no where without them

My story is being written

But so much remains Unwritten

So I write in Pen

Until the very end

Art

The wall between us is about a mile thick

I am not just some bug you can flick

You took down my wall brick by brick

Why don’t you stop being a prick

You can’t say you love me

And then choose to flee

You expect me to jump for joy Yippee!

I think we will agree to disagree

You used my bricks to create your wall

The fact I gave you my heart makes me appalled

You were supposed to heal all

But you were nothing but a close call

You shall always be in my heart

Even when they roll me out on a cart

We may always be apart

But honey our love was an art

I stand here on this edge
Looking down at the people below
Wondering how I came to be
Wondering how I am me
Was I pushed from another ledge?
Did I just go with the flow?
I know how I came to be me
I know how this Ice Queen came to be
I took charge of my life
You choose to flee
I am as cold as Ice, as one can be
But you created this being that is me
You never made me your wife
Look at me in all of my glory
I know how I came be
An Ice Queen that is me
I was sick of the strife
So sick of the fight to love
So an Ice Queen I shall be
That is this new me
It took everything to not reach for a knife
I will not get that white dove
This Ice Queen is me
It is all I can be
So I stand here on the edge
Looking down at the people below
Wondering if I can change me
Wondering for him who I could be

I Love You…

I am sick of the lying

I am sick of the trying

I have to tell you true

What I feel about you

I walked out on you

Somehow you still loved me true

I said I didn’t love you

But we know that ain’t true

I am sick of the lying

I am sick of the trying

I have to tell you true

What I feel about you

I love you with all my heart

I don’t want to be apart

I want to give you my soul

Even though it blacker than coal

I am sick of the lying

I am sick of the trying

I have to tell you true

What I feel about you

I love you…

Poems: The Past and Blur

The Past

I am in love with the past
Even though I knew our time wouldn’t last
I lost a lot of loved ones in my life
But the time with them was worth the strife
I am in love with the past
And the past did not last
I must move on
And face a new dawn
It pains me to start anew
Your hold on my heart is like super glue
So I rip you from my heart
So I can give myself a new start
You have left me with a scar
I look up to the Dog Star
To find my way from the past
You destroyed my heart like a bomb blast
But I am moving to a new dawn
I must move on
I am in love with the past
But if I am to survive… it cannot last

Blur

My life passes by in a blur as I try to live by your rules
Life is not all curls and pearls
I can’t live like this
Just so I can have your kiss
I am worth more than that
So I am putting away the welcome mat
My life passed me by in a blur
I don’t want what we were
I could not live by your rules
Life was not curls and pearls
I loved your kisses
And I even wanted to be your missus
I am worth more than you
That is, for sure, true
Life can’t pass in a blur
So I put down the liqueur
I am worth more than that
So I put way the welcome mat

Hiding

I should be hiding in a corner
With all the pain that is inside me
But here I sit trying to hide the pain in my voice
But here I stand trying to hide the pain in my eyes
I need you here by my side
Why did He have to take you
Didn’t He see how much we needed you
I should be hiding in a corner
With all the pain that is inside of me
Yet here I set going about my day
Trying to hide the pain in my voice
Trying to hide the pain in my eyes
People think I’m fine but they don’t see me at night
They don’t see the true depth of my pain
We need you here by our sides
Oh, why did He have to take you away
I want to be hiding in that that corner
To hide all the pain I have inside
But instead I go about my day
Hiding the pain in my eyes
Hiding behind a smile that is fake
Hiding the pain in my voice
By forcing myself to laugh
And here I sit trying to hide the pain in my voice
And here I stand trying to hide the pain in my eyes
I still don’t know why He had to take you away
When you should be here standing by our side

RANDOM WIP:

I long for beginnings. I always see the end. I help the passing of souls as the goddess of Death. I worked well with my sister Spring. But I long to be a part of a beginning. A once upon a time. Not a they lived happily, or unhappily, ever after. I went to our father and cried to him about the injustice of my existence. He took me in his arms and held me as he told me that I would have my Once Upon a Time. I was then sent to live amongst the mortals. My mission is to live my Once Upon a Time to my Happily Ever After. If I fail then I will be dethroned as the Goddess of Death and lose all my powers and knowledge of who my soul truly was and become forever a mortal stuck in a reincarnation loop of despair. Will my Once Upon A Time lead to my Happily Ever After or will I destroy my soul?

Heart’s Desire

Can’t you see me in the eyes of the moon

Can’t you feel me in the burn of the sun

Can’t you see that we all become dust

Can’t you feel the power between us

Can’t you see your heart’s desire

Can’t you feel my heart’s fire

Can’t you see me in the eyes of the moon

Can’t you feel me in the burn of the sun

Can’t you see the void without me

Can’t you feel that we are meant to be

Can’t you see I was created for you

Can’t you feel my words are true

Can’t you see me in the eyes of the moon

Can’t you feel me in the burn of the sun

Can’t you see I may have left this world

But…

Can’t you feel me in your heart’s fold